04 December 2013

It's been a year, today.

It's been a year, today, since I last heard his laugh. 

An entire year since I last got his great advice or hung out with him in the garage as he cleaned his Chevelle.

365 days since I last went out to lunch with him or we watched a football game together.

12 months since he has played with my kids on the living room floor or watched one of Carter's soccer games.

Not a day goes by that I don't think about him.  What he'd be doing if he were still here with us.  What he'd say when my mom turned 60 or Reid and Aubrey turned 1.  How'd he react watching Carter step on to the school bus for the very first time or when I found out I was pregnant with another precious baby girl. 

He has missed so much in the past year and, while it's so hard to imagine all the years he will miss, I know that he is still with us always. 

I picture his smile often.

I hear his voice when I need him. 

And I know that he would be proud of the things that we have done.

Missing you always, Dad.


Kmcblackburn said...

We have much in common...two Philly girls who lost their dad's a year ago. Dec. 7th is the one-year anniversary of my dad's passing. My heart goes out to you. I keep telling myself that feeling a loss deeply, is a blessing. It means someone had a major impact in our lives :)

Salina said...

So sweet. Thank you for sharing this and being so real. Memories will outlast it all. Think positive.

Becca said...

Long time reader, first time commenting. I just wanted to send you a virtual hug. Friday marks 9 years since my dad passed. My heart still hurts and I still think about him everyday. I understand your pain and can tell you that time does help. It still hurts, you still wonder what life would be like, but it gets better. Sending you love, light and positivity.

Katie @ Loves of Life said...

Knowing this feeling all too well, my friend. hugs hugs hugs to you. xo

Brooke said...

Thinking of you and your family. ((hugs))

You can see such Joy in his face:)

Jennifer Marshall said...

Thinking of you and your family. He seems like he was a truly incredible dad. {{{Hugs.}}}

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