05 December 2012

Numb

Time has stopped for me and I'm not quite sure when it will start again.

My dad passed away very suddenly yesterday morning.

I feel completely numb.

My family is devastated.

I don't even know what to do or how to live without the greatest man I have ever known.  Someone who has taught me so much and made me the person I am today.  Someone who has touched more lives than any of us could have ever imagined.

I don't know when I'll be back here, but please keep my family in your thoughts and prayers during this unimaginable time.
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  1. Oh no, Jenni, I am SO SORRY. I have been where you are (when I was 20) and it was the single defining experience of my life so far. Also the worst thing that has ever happened to me. MUCH LOVE to you and your family. I am so glad he got to know Reid for a couple of months before he passed away. I am thinking of you and sending healing thoughts your way. xoxo Amber

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  2. I'm so sorry for your devastating loss. There are no words. Take good care and my thoughts are with you.

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  3. I am So, SO very sorry, Jenni. Keeping you and your family and your dear Father in my prayers.

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  4. Oh my! I am so sorry for your loss. This is such heart breaking news. May god help you through this painful time.

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  5. So very sorry for your loss. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. xoxo

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  6. I am so sorry, Jenni, for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family during this difficult time.

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  7. so sorry for your loss.

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  8. So very sorry for the loss of your dad. Your family is in my thoughts and prayers.

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  9. Oh Jenni. I am so, so incredibly sorry. We will be keeping you and our family in our prayers.

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  10. I'm so very sorry for your loss! :( will keep you in my prayers for sure.

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  11. So sorry, Jenni. I wish there were words I could say that would ease your pain. Praying for you and sending hugs!

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  12. So very, very sorry. Thoughts and prayers to your family.

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  13. OH MY Jenni!! My heart aches for you and your family. Having gone through losing a parent, I know how absolutely devastating and painful it is. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

    Sending many ::hugs:: from MN!!!

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  14. There are no words. I am praying for you during this horribly tough time. I am so sorry!

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  15. Oh my God, Jenni. There are no words...I am so very sorry for your loss. You and your sweet family will be in my thoughts.

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  16. Oh Jenni I am so sorry for your loss. My heart is breaking for you and your family. You are a strong and close family and I know you will all be there for each other.... Sending you many prayers and hugs........ I lost my dad almost 5 years ago and it definitely will change you but you and your family will get through it. I promise you that!!!!!

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  17. I am so, so sorry for your loss. Absolutely heartbreaking. I will be thinking of you and your family during this unbelievably difficult time.

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  18. Oh Jenni, I am so sorry for you and for your family. We lost my husband's mom almost exactly 3 years ago, and while it wasn't so sudden, it was still devastating. I know there is really nothing I can say, but know that we are all thinking of you and your family.

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  19. Jenni;
    I know I'm not even a blip on your radar right now, but I just wanted you you know how many people are praying for you. I cannot imagine how difficult life is right now for you. You and your entire family are in my prayers.

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  20. I'm so very sorry for your loss. Your family will be in my thoughts and prayers during this incredibly difficult time.

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  21. Oh, Jenni, I am so so sorry for your tremendous loss. T&Ps

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  22. That is awful. I'm so very sorry for your loss.

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  23. Oh, hunny. I am so very sorry. My thoughts and prayers are with your family.

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  24. I am so sorry for your loss. I will be praying for you and your family during this difficult time.

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  25. Oh my goodness, Jenni, I am so ncredibly sorry for your loss. My heart aches for you and your family! You will be in my thoughts during this very difficult time. Hugs!

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  26. OMG Jenni! I am so sorry to hear this. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family during this difficult time. May you find peace and comfort amongst family and friends.

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  27. Jenni, my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. I'm so sorry to hear about the loss of your father.

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  28. Prayers for you and yours, so sorry for your loss :(

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  29. Jenni, I am so, so sorry. I can't even imagine what you all must be going through. Sending prayers your way and thinking of all of y'all.

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  30. Crying. Jenni, I love you and I'm praying so hard right now that God would give you peace. I can't imagine what you are all going through. Just know you're on my mind a lot.

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  31. I'm so very sorry for your loss. I can't even begin to imagine what you are going through right now. Your family will be in my prayers.

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  32. I'm so sorry for your loss Jenni. Much love. xoxo

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  33. I am so sorry for you! Will keep your family in my prayers!

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  34. Jenni, I am so sorry for your loss. You are in my prayers.

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  35. I opened this up and my jaw dropped. Your in my heart and prayers. Thinking of you

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  36. My heart just aches for you and your family. May God's peace and comfort be with you. You all will be in my thoughts and prayers!

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  37. Thinking of you in this difficult time. Surround yourself with those you love and who love you and you will get through this.

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  38. I am so sorry for your loss. I am in tears just reading your post. I am so thankful that you have such a close family and you will have them to fall back onto for support. My father-in-law passed away 2 years ago Thanksgiving from brain cancer. He had a massive heart attack 10 years prior to passing away and we almost lost him then. My husband is so thankful for the extra 10 years that he knows he got with his dad, I know your dad was also given extra time after an accident several years ago. I am sure those extra years as you may see them now were a huge blessing in all of your lives. We will never know why great people are taken away from us too early. Big hugs, I will be thinking about and praying for your family.

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  39. Jenni - I am so sorry to hear of the loss of your father. Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

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  40. Jenni,
    I'm so incredibly sorry about your dad.
    I know that nothing anyone says can really make you feel better at this time, but just know that you are in my thoughts and my prayers.

    My dad passed away this past February very suddenly and it is still so painful to even think about. There are days I still feel so numb.

    Feel free to email me any time if you need to talk. I know sometimes it feels good to just let everything out.

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  41. I'm so very sorry for your loss. Thinking of you!

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  42. I am so sorry for your devestating loss. I will be keeping you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.

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  43. Jenni, I am so so sorry for your loss. I will be thinking of you and your family and let us all know if there is anything we can do to help, even if we are all far away :(

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  44. Thinking and praying for you and your family during this time. There are no words to describe what you are going through, just know that I am sending you an internet :hug:

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  45. Jenni I'm so sorry for your loss. My thoughts are with you and your family at this difficult time. Your dad is an angel now, watching over all of you. Much love to you all.

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  46. Jenni, I'm lifting you & your family up in prayer. My thoughts are with you all during this difficult time.

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  47. I am so sorry for your loss. thoughts are with you and your family during this impossible time.

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  48. I am so sorry for your loss. thoughts are with you and your family during this impossible time.

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  49. Oh my gosh, I'm so very sorry!!! You are definitely in my thoughts, I hope you and your family find peace.

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  50. I'm sorry to read about your lose. Your father and family will be in my family's prayers

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  51. So very sorry for your family's loss.

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  52. My heart hurts for you! Just from reading your blog I can feel how close you were to your dad and how special he was to you. I am so very sorry you have to go through such a difficult thing.
    You are in my T&P's.

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  53. I am soooo sorry to hear this news. Your love for your dad has shown so much over the time I have been reading your blog! My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. I am so sorry! Take care of yourself.

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  54. I am so sorry for your loss. I wish I could tell you it gets easier but it doesn't. I lost my dad 2 years ago and I miss that man so much. Lean on your friends and family ~ when someone offers help take it ~ it is not a sign a weakness ~ it is a sign of love and the people around you want to show that love any way they can.
    You are stronger than you think and you will see your dad in little things and that will never go away!

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  55. So sorry! Take care of yourself. I would be devastated as well. Hugs to you.

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  56. Saying that I'm sorry just doesn't seem like enough in this situation, but I am. I'm so sorry.

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  57. I've been reading for quite a while. Jenni--my heart aches for you and you family. I'm so sorry. You all will be in my thoughts and prayers.

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  58. My heart is breaking for you and your entire family. Please know that my thoughts and prayers are with you all.

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  59. I'm so very sorry! Ill be thinking of you and your family!

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  60. My heart breaks for you! I'll keep you in my prayers for sure.

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  61. There are simply no words that can take the pain away. My heart is simply breaking for you and your family. Many prayers for you all during this tragic time.

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  62. I am so sorry Jenni. I don't even know what to say. I'll be praying for you and your family in this hard time. Lean on each other, you have an amazing family. Remember all the beautiful memories you have of him. My heart is broken for you. Hugs.

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  63. I'm so so sorry :(
    I have followed your blog for a long time. Your entire family is just so precious. Will be praying for yall!

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  64. Whitney(imlovinthislife)December 5, 2012 at 8:40 PM

    Jenni - I am SO incredibly sorry for your loss! I know there are no words to take the pain away, but please know that you & your family are in my constant thoughts & prayers. Big hugs to you!

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  65. So sorry to hear this. Praying for you & your family.
    Pamela

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  66. Thinking of you and your family.

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  67. Jenni, I am so sorry for your loss. Although I only read your blog anonymously and have never left a comment, I want to thank you for opening your ups and downs with us all. I hope you take your time taking care of yourself! Thoughts and prayers your way.

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  68. I am so sorry for your loss, I can't even imagine what you are going through - I know he was very important to you and that you were all very close. Sending good thoughts your way.

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  69. I am so sorry. My heart goes out to you and your family.

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  70. I've been reading for a long time and remember all your loving entries about your dad, your hero, and his courageous battle years ago and how proud he was to walk his girls down the aisle. I am crying reading this news and feel a personal sense of loss. I'll be praying for you and your sweet family.

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  71. My heart hurts for you and your family. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

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  72. I'm so sorry for your loss. I can't imagine what you and your family are going through right now. I'll be praying for you.

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  73. I am so sorry for your loss. I too lost my dad very suddenly and it was extremely hard. I can relate to a little how you are feeling. You and your family will be in my thoughts during this difficult time.

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  74. I am so very sorry. My heart aches for you and your family. I just can't even imagine what you're going through. Will be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

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  75. Thoughts and prayers go out to you and your family. Hugs. Take care.

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  76. So sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

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  77. Oh Jenni! I'm so very sorry!!!! I will keep you and your family and your incredible father in my prayers.

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  78. I can't begin to express how sorry I am for your sudden loss. Your love for your family is the first and foremost thing I respect about this blog. Thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Remember there is no right or wrong "way" to grieve....just be with your family & support one another. May time and memories help ease your pain and loss.

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  79. My heart is breaking for you and your family. I'm so sorry for your loss.

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  80. Jenni, I can't even begin to tell you how sorry I am for your loss. Nothing I say can make it better, but please know that so many people are praying for you and your family.

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  81. I am so so sorry for your loss! Wish I could give you a big huge hug right now!! Saying lots of prayers for peace for you and your family! Love you lady!! xoxo

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  82. I'm so sorry for your loss:( prayers and hugs headed your way xoxo

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  83. So sorry for your loss, Jenni xxx

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  84. Oh Jenni, I am so sorry for your loss. Praying for you and your family.

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  85. Oh Jenni. When I saw this my heart sunk. I was where you are 18 months ago and I so know the heartbreak you are feeling. Take all the time you need. Life will never be the same but it will feel better eventually. Please reach out if you need anything.

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  86. I am so sorry for your loss, you and all of your family are in my thoughts.

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  87. Oh Jenni I am so sorry for you and your family! What a terrible loss!

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  88. Thinking of you! So sorry for your loss!

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  89. I am so sorry to hear this. I know from reading your blog all of these years just how special your bond is with your dad. Your family is in my thoughts now. Please accept my virtual prayers and hugs.

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  90. Lifting you and your family in prayer today. ((hugs))

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  91. I am so very sorry to hear this. I have been reading your blog for sometime and know how important your family is to you. Please know that you are in my thoughts.

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  92. Jenni, I am so so very sorry.

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  93. Sorry for your loss. I will be praying for your family.

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  94. I am so very sorry for your family's loss. My thoughts and prayers will be with you during this most difficult time.

    Tammy

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  95. Saying in sorry for your loss doesn't seem to be enough, but I am truly heartbroken for you and yor family. From what you've written your father was a wonderful man who blessed so many lives.
    My deepest sympathy.

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  96. Jenni, I cried when I read this post. While I don't know you and your family, through your blog I feel like I do and my heart breaks for all of you. You've always spoken so highly of your father and what an amazing man he was. No words seem like enough to convey how deeply sorry I am for your loss. I'm praying and thinking of you and your family.

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  97. So very sorry for your loss. I am another anonymous reader who knows through your blog how much you adored your father. Hold onto those wonderful memories you have of him through this difficult time and I hope they are a comfort to you. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

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  98. I am so, so very sorry for your loss. I'm a loyal reader, but first time commenter and wanted you to know that my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family during this time.

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  99. I can't even imagine....many thoughts and prayers for you and your family!

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  100. I am so sorry, Jenni. Thinking of you and your family.

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  101. I am so sorry for your loss. You and your family are in my thoughts. <3

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  102. I'm so sorry for your loss. I've never commented before, but wanted to express my condolences to you. I suddenly lost my dad 14 years ago (when I was 19)and I still miss him dearly. I know there isn't much I can say that will ease the pain, but know that the lessons your dad taught you will forever live in you. A part of your dad will live on in you, and in your children forever.

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  103. oh, jenni, my heart breaks for you and your family. i will most definitely keep y'all in my thoughts and prayers. e-hugs all around...

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  104. Thoughts and prayers for you and your family during this very difficult time. Hugs!

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  105. I am so very sorry! There are no words to ease your pain, just know many people are thinking about you and keeping your family in their prayers!

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  106. All I can say is that I'm so sorry. I simply cannot imagine a world in which my father was no longer living, it takes my breath away to even think of it. My heart, thoughts and prayers are with you, your mother, sisters and the rest of your family.

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  107. I am so incredibly sorry for your loss!

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  108. There are no words.

    Please know you and your family are in my thoughts.

    xoxo

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  109. Oh, Jenni! I am so sorry for your loss. I experienced the loss of my most favorite aunt this week. And while her death was not sudden (she was battled cancer for the last 3 years) it didn't hurt any less. She was the best person I will ever have known in this lifetime. Jenni, I am praying for you and your family. Praying that you will find peace and comfort in each other and in the beautiful memories you have of your father. God Bless your family.

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  110. I'm so sorry! My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

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  111. Bless you and your entire family at this time of sadness and always.

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  112. I am so very sorry! You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

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  113. Oh no! How sad. I'm so sorry for your loss. I will keep yall in my thoughts & prayers.

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  114. Prayers to you and your family, Jenni. I am so very sorry for your loss. Stay strong and know he is with you in spirit. His love will always be with you.
    xoxo,
    Sarah

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  115. So so sorry! Praying for you and your family.

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  116. I am so sorry for your horrific loss. You and your sweet family will be in my prayers.

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  117. I'm so sorry for your loss. You and your family are in my thoughts.

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  118. I'm so sorry!!! Hugs for you and your family!!! <3

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  119. Jenni,
    I am so very sorry! I have been praying for your family since reading your post. Stay strong for your mom and keep each other close. --Wendy (your fellow Phillies fan)

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  120. Oh my goodness, even through the web I know what your dad meant to you and your family. I am so very sorry. Hugs.

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  121. Jenni, I am so very sorry for your loss. I can not even imagine. I will be praying for you all.

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  122. I am so, so sorry for your loss, Jenni.

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  123. I frequently read your blog but have never posted- I am so very sorry for your loss! What shocking and terribly sad news this is; sending my condolences to you and your family during this time.

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  124. Jenni I am so very sorry for your loss, what a guy he was.... Thinking of you and your family. Xoxo hugs

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  125. Jenni, I am not sure how I missed this news of your family. And I know I am late, but please know that you and your family are in my prayers for peace and healing. I am so sorry for your loss and know that no words can make this hurt less, but please know that you are not alone and that even internet strangers have you and your family swaddled in their thoughts and prayers during this time of need.

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